I apologize for the length of time since my last post—I do not intend to make that the norm. I can happily report, however, that I have been busy during that time in productive ways.
So no, I didn’t magically get to where I needed to be by becoming an initiated fraternity brother. In fact, I would never say now that I have reached that place of ultimate achievement; I may never say that in my time. But I had already taken a large and significant step toward addressing the things that were holding me back around the people in my life.
There were still times that I would not go to social events because I felt like I wasn’t up to making small talk with strangers. There were still many days when I felt like I just wasn’t meant to interact naturally with others the way my peers did. And finally, I know that it held me back even in the relationships I had with some who were close to me. It still bothers me when I think about it—and it drives me to be and to do more in my life going forward.
I feel like it’s best to leave this thread where it is for the moment—and potentially for good. My primary goal from sharing this part of my experience was to give those who know me, and those who have yet to know me, a window into where I have come from and where I am going. My desire to connect more and more effectively with people is one that shall always drive me.
Until next time. Take care and be well.